1/5/10

A Resolve

Peony at Schermerhorn Symphony Center
A Resolve for Every Morning of the New Year

I will this day try to live a simple, sincere, and serene life

Repelling every thought of discontent, anxiety, discouragement, impurity, and self-seeking

Cultivating cheerfulness, magnanimity, charity, and the habit of holy silence

Exercising economy in expenditure, carefulness in conversation, diligence in appointed service, fidelity to every trust, and a child-like trust in God.

--From a Calendar by Bishop John H. Vincent, 1907(ish)

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It doesn't say I'll post anything in a timely manner. *ahem*

I hadn't made a New Year's Resolution (I do not keep them) but when I saw this I wanted to have it, to see it again and not forget. And what better way to keep something than to put it on your blog?

I like this because instead of exercising or organizing or other standard resolutions, this is focused on inside work. What virtues am I exercising? How am I organizing my attitudes, arranging them in the best possible way?

It seems even harder to me than stepping back on the Elliptical machine, but it's a "resolve for every morning." Each new day I can start again with this in mind.

A habit of holy silence, a sense of peace and serenity, are things I have struggled with in the last year. I feel in part denied these things by my life-stage*, but also, I'm unable to carve them out of the spaces where they could exist because I can't settle my mind when the opportunity comes. It's like I'm out of practice. My mind won't stop with the "you should be doings," or I'm just flat tired and stopping my mind would make it fall asleep immediately.

I know I know - if I got on the Elliptical I wouldn't be so tired. These things are a vicious tidy little circle aren't they?

What did you resolve? Do you keep your resolutions?


*To clarify: Of course I feel serenity and peace in my family life, with my children. But they are loud. Mommy also needs some mental and spiritual "space" for contemplation and stuff. Once a year at least.

16 comments:

Rachel said...

I love this post, Amy.

I'm not calling it a resolution.. I'm calling it life changes ;-)

De said...

yes, that's a good one - it covers a lot.

Happy New Year!

maitlandmommy AKA Sheri said...

i can't do resolutions. even though i can do lists really well, i can't resolve to keep doing the things ON the list. But i have found that if i just say "Sheri, you have to do ONE thing for yourself today from this list - only ONE: walk for 30 minutes OR do yoga for ONLY 15 minutes OR clean the ENTIRE kitchen including getting the coffee ready for the morning OR making your bed." I can pretty much guarantee that within the week i will have at least walked once, did yoga once (even for only 15 minutes) and at least ONE day i have a clean kitchen to wake up to and a made bed to crawl into. That is the only way i can do a resolution. Crazy i know. It's not for everyone.

Kel said...

Yes I make resolutions but they are more along these lines than those of 'losing weight' or 'saving more' or whatever. I just do not do well with those specific ones...this year I am resolving to 'stop and smell the roses.' I think your 'resolve' is wonderful and we all could use a little 'spiritual' time at least once a year!

Happy New Year!!
~K

Nap Warden said...

I'm really not a resolution gal. Be more patient, be more patient, be more patient....it's becoming a mantra.

mo.stoneskin said...

I'm not so sure about the elliptical business. Those things can be tiring.

evenshine said...

Can I just say that that flower makes me want to grow a whole bed of them and just roll in them?

That can be MY moment of peace.

purejoy said...

i'm thinking this is where the margaritas come in??

i love this post. i love the idea of working on the inside. i was looking at my inside today and marveling that i sometimes forget that the work i'm doing for God is for GOD. you know, HIM. i don't take my preparation as seriously as i should and don't ever bother to die to myself before serving. it's all too often all about me.
not a very good inside view.
so thanks for that reminder. it was food for my soul.

The Urban Cowboy said...

Work on the inside, and everything else will fall into place...I think.

rubbish said...

Resolution No. 1 - no drinking in January.
2nd January my mates Mum dies so I meet him down the pub for a few.
All other resolutions put on hold until 2011.
All the best.

Amy said...

evenshine - I adore peonies too! I took that shot last summer - it's one of my favorite pictures I've taken.

rubbish - well, extenuating circumstances and all... There's always next year!

mudmama said...

Gorgeous flower shot!
Inner peace is soooo important, well put!
Hope you are enjoying our weather here :)

Malia said...

Last year, instead of trying to follow a list of resolutions, I picked a word that I wanted to define my life for that year. Last year's word was "thrive" and wouldn't you know it, I had the most difficult year of my life so far?

It's hard for me to look back on last year and say whether or not I thrived. I feel as though I barely survived it. In fact, I had to just go with a "one day at a time" mantra to get through the uncertainties and worries weighing down on me.

So, the reflection you posted is gold for me. I need to print it out and put it somewhere that I can see it and read it every morning.

Thank you, Amy!

Michelle said...

What a beautiful post! I would LOVE to cultivate the habit of holy silence...I need to look into making that happen!

Karen @ If I Could Escape . . . said...

Great post! I too tried to not make resolutions rather life changes.

OHmommy said...

Great post Amy. Im not good w/resolutions. Really, I can't even remember the last one I made. I just keep moving forward. Happy new year!

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